Shukasari

We have too many "wants." I want a nice big car and house, I want a good husband, I want a beautiful wife, I want delicious foodstuffs, I want lots and lots of money. Always wanting this and that. Most of the time we contemplate of these things. Why not start to want: I want to serve the Vaishnavas more, I want Sri Guru to sit in my heart, I want the Divine Couple to sit in my heart, I want to see only the good in others, I want to see the bad in me, I want to go home, back to Godhead. O I want these prayers answered.

Recently a mother of five was a little distressed about her children. She feels they don't really need her they way they used to. She was wondering where did that little patter of feet and that cute gurgle all gone to. Before puberty, it was almost always, "Mom! Where are you?" or "I want my mommy!" Then all of a sudden they have all grown up. They have their own set of friends. Their own life to live. And most of all not much time for mommy. So this mother is totally bewildered. She wonders at the turn of events. The truth is she don't seem to realise that she herself has made a cycle. She does not realise that once before she was a baby, toddler, a young child, a teenager, a woman, married lady and now a mother. She herself did exactly the same things to her parents. The same cycle goes on. Yet, a lot of us can identify with her. We get bewildered by Krsna's time factor. We have been mothers, fathers etc etc before. Married and had children a zi...

We are wandering and wandering in 8 million and 400 thousand species of life. Of that 400,000 are humans. How many ethnic groups or race do we know of? There's Indian, Malay, Chinese, French, Italian etc etc. The list goes on and on. Just like that we have been caught up in this vicious cycle of birth, disease, old age and death. When is it ever going to end? I saw these little birdies and said to myself: "I too was once a bird, perhaps. Or a dog, hog etc etc." Now I have this human body. Should I waste it in bickering and politics? Even when I have come to a bona fide guru, should I caste it away, and go back to this vicious cycle? No! O Gurudeva , I want to go home--- Back to Godhead. That should be my business now. O Little Birdies, I can only chant the maha -mantra to you. May you with the mercy of my Gurudeva and the entire guru- parampara , Nitai and Gauranga become Krsna bhaktas in your next life.

Are we the doers? Sometimes we maybe doing so much of "service." We tend to forget at times we are not capable of even moving a blade of grass. Everything happens with the sanction of Lord Krsna. As Srila Gurudeva once mentioned we want to do service but Srila Rupa and Srila Sanatana Gosvamis are in the service itself. But they never feel they have done anything at all. Even Srimati Radhika Herself, the personification of Tolerance, says She has not served Krsna at all. Instead She glorifies the deer and everything else in Vrindavan. So, are we the doers? Sometime back His Holiness Hrishikesh Maharaja mentioned what Srila Bhakti Promode Puri Maharaja said about service. "It is not the service itself. But the attitude towards the service."